So I just remember I had this thing and how important in my life it used to be...lol How priorities change.

Hello It's been a year ? I think it's safe to sya that, yes indeedy. But let me address where The hell I've been and where I'm at.

For starters My new house is built..it's beautiful I love it and I couldn't be more grateful. Life is really something. At home we also have a new addition! His name is Tobi a feisty male cat that never ceases to amuse me. He's all black but if you look closely he has these chocolate brown swirls on him. So pretty!

Um what else? Oh well I'm at the best state I've ever been before...I'm in very good shape, healthy, and the most confident I've ever been in my entire life so far. Each day just keeps getting better. I've ruled out all the negative thoughts and people in my life and now have the best and most supportive people ever and I couldn't be happier. I'm doing myy own thing and not giving a fuck.

Not gonna lie I'm also the hottest I've ever been haha! Hell yeah I work hard bitch! I lost almost 30 pounds and I've got some nice muscles now...I'm continuing to loose it too! I've just been really focused on this and I keep getting what I want..I noticed a lot more attention now and it's just crazy to deal with haha!

Anywayy in terms of school I have a good gpa and good relationships with my professors. I'm a real go getter now and I love it..it really helps you out...

oh and here's a biggie...I"M GOING TO PARISSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!! For spring break with the lovely Jennifer Garvey..love that girl. We're going to be ridiculous haha! I <3 Frenchmen...hehehe
I speak very good french now too.

No complaints about my life..except that my mother needs to stop being so invasive..but that's a mom for you.

Oh I joined a sorority and I think it was the best decision possible on my part..i love my sisters!
It kinda reminds me of aha except thaty these girls won't talk shit about you and pretend to be your friend..lol I love them with all my heart <3
I have my induction ceremony today and We are going to party hard haha...like we always do!


Ahhhh I love life :) couldn't be happier

Women..... are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the
top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait or the right man to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
Now Men.... Men are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up to women to stomp the shit out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with.


So I guess no one as scaled to the top of my tree yet

so I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, and I want to pose this question..

Is it wrong to not believe in love?

I don't mean familial and friendship type love...because I believe in those whole heartedly.

I mean the "soulmate" type love.

I just don't see it happening...well for me atleast. I want to believe, I do but I have yet to be proven it.

In today's world everything just seems to revolve around sex...
No one seems to want that emotional intimacy.. I haven't really had that so I guess you could say I'm "Emotionally Horny".

Whatever, I guess there is just something bigger and better out there..that's why it hasn't happened yet.

So this weekend was very productive. I went on a road trip with my dad to D.C. to visit American. The result= I absolutely love that school. Every aspect about it from the campus, dorms, career services center, the people...everything was amazing. It's exactly what I want. I also liked the fact that it's in an area I don't really know. I like to explore. It has such a gorgeous campus! They have one of the highest percentages of international students. (hooraaaaay for foreigners!!=) )

My dad was acting like a college freshman again as soon as we got there. He attend American back in the 70's..so he kept walking around the campus and showing off. During the Au trivia portion he was like the only one answering haha...it got a little embarassing but hey we received free t-shirts out of it.

I reallllllllllllly want to go to this school. I will be the happiest young women in the world if I do. Because unlike my current school P.U. aka pace University( haha yes it literally and figuratively stinks!)
the advisors were very helpful, the student body is highly motivated, and there is just soooooooo much you can do there, unlike pace.

I asked this one student where the library was and he directed me to it right away...he had this hot french accent! lol oh man I can't wait...

please Please please!!!!!!

This will make my year so much better. I'm busting my ass this semester to bring up my gpa by a a few more poins to be certain of my acceptance.

So this weekend was very productive. I went on a road trip with my dad to D.C. to visit American. The result= I absolutely love that school. Every aspect about it from the campus, dorms, career services center, the people...everything was amazing. It's exactly what I want. I also liked the fact that it's in an area I don't really know. I like to explore. It has such a gorgeous campus! They have one of the highest percentages of international students. (hooraaaaay for foreigners!!=) )

My dad was acting like a college freshman again as soon as we got there. He attend American back in the 70's..so he kept walking around the campus and showing off. During the Au trivia portion he was like the only one answering haha...we got free t-shirts out of it.

I reallllllllllllly want to go to this school. I will be the happiest young women in the world if I do. Because unlike my current school P.U. aka pace University( haha yes it literally and figuratively stinks!)
the advisors were very helpful, the student body is highly motivated, and there is just soooooooo much you can do there, unlike pace.

Everytime I go to IKEA I feel like an 8 year old going to a carnival...I can't explain it...but there is something about swedish decour that really allures...not to mention I am obsessed with ABBA,Wasa, and Swedish Meatballs

Lately my brain has been exploding with ideas and concerns, errupting like an active volcano. But here's the thing, I don't feel like I have been as active as I promised myself. Why do I tell myself that life is like a dry erase board, when it's clearly not? Why can't I just admit to myself I'm on the brink of a downward spiral?

"Well Ma'am", a voice uncertain to me belts out," it's simply because your thoughts are preoccupied with the wrong aspect of your expectations."

Is this true? Does this explain the seemingly endless tug-of-war fought on my soft brain soil?

"WHAT IS GOING ON HERE...AM I LOSING IT OR WHAT?"

"No, you asshole"..now that voice was certain.

" Ok, thennnn...from here-?"

"To go from here you must start from-there."

"But how is that--

"Just believe me on this one, and shut the fuck up mentally."

I guess that is what it takes sometimes. Rather than being distracted by running my mouth outwardly, I have been obliged to listen to my own slander from some outspoken orifice in my brain.

This is not the end, but it sure as hell ain't the beginning.

I trust insomnia to be steady these days

Yesterday I ran almost 3 miles with out stopping or hyperventalating....it was with ease..and afterwards I felt so alive again. It's what I needed...any bad emotions were whiped right away. I realize I'm addicted to running because it gives me this really awesome high.

I love Jason Mraz he's playing in nyc soo i want to see him so bad. I've had this really bad mix of emotions lately...apprehension..joy...longing...yearning..estaticism..anxious...uhh whatever


The Never Ending story is good

Don't turn back..

I got a coffeemaker.

Grow up...everyone.

God the employment rate for my generation is lookin slim.


I miss my sorellina <3

KRISTA COMEBACK FROM POLAND LIKE RIGHT NOW K?

So my friend was inspired to sraw a picture of it